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Profile Zheru simple.addiction-@hotmail.com (L): 3sixty5days, AmazingPhil, The Beatles, Charlieskies, Danisnotonfire, Nigahiga, Owl City, Hugh Grant, Queen, Shane Dawson, Whatthebuck, Wiener Sängerknaben "Everyone says love hurts, but that isn’t true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt." - Charlieskies Tagboard Links Adilah Aiai Ainsley Aishu Alethea Algae Anisa:D Aqilah Ariff Bryan Cassandra Celine Cheryl Clarice Claudds! Dayna! Denise Denise Denise Chen<3 Desiree Diyanah Farhana Fitriah Florence Eugenia Geraldine GraceANG Gurvin Hafizah Hanan Hazel Hazirah! HuiYing Isabelle Ivy Izni Jacob Janene Jalyn Jemima JiaYing Jin Rong Jingyu Jolene Joline Joy Joy Joyce Juliana Krystal Lee Leena Loyang Place Magdalene Meow Michelle Munmun! Nadiah Nat Nedra Nicole Niza Nuril Hannah<3 Pling:D Riny Rou Hui Sabrina! Samuel Sandy Sarah Sarah Yeo Selina Shannon Sheena Shermaine Sherlin:D Shiling ShuenRong Si Xing Syifa! Tammy Tzai Wei(: Vanessa Vicky WanJun WanJun Wei Xian Winnie Woan Chin XinYi Xing Hwee YiYing YiXia Zhi Xuan 6/7'07 2H'09 Archives October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 Credits ©Glamouresque. Hello :) I support... Amazing Phil Danisnotonfire Michael Buckley/Whatthebuck :) Shane Dawson TV :) Stephen Byrne :) 3sixty5days :) p/s: Okay yes I know they're the same person but I couldn't resist!	Thursday, March 19, 2009 Verge Today, Today I felt like giving up, I felt like giving in, I felt like breaking down. Cause I feel (and I know) that I've lost my place to a sec one(not that I have anything against sheen), that I won't be in main 5, how if I dont make it into next year's bdiv, all the questions kept running through my mind. I felt disappointed with myself, that sheen was such a better player than me and even though she's been playing since primary school, the disappointment, the sadness, everything, was still there. JL didn't play me at all and I really really felt like crying there and then. Blame it on my period, moodswings, whatever, but I've been feeling really emotional these few days. I cried my eyes out when I came home. You guys dont seem to be making it better, I feel like I'm totally insignificant in this thing called a TEAM. I don't know, maybe it's the way I know so many other people are better than me and that I can never beat them because I was never meant to play basketball and I don't know what I'm still doing here, holding on. But then again, I know the answer, I'm holding on for you guys, especially you. It seems that you're the only one who actually cares how I feel and you go through everything and anything with me from laughter and giving me a shoulder to cry on when I really need it. It's before and after trainings with you that I always look forward to. But still, it's not enough to keep me going. Sure, I know I have Selina to fall back on, after the smses today(selina you have no idea how much you cheered me up), and you, Bat. Your message almost made me cry after I sent you the fuck everything message. Then again, I think of the big picture and I see myself going nowhere. It's going around in endless circles that I wanna stop. Maybe I should be like them, and just give up. I should, because it would make life so much less painful to do something that I actually excel in and not feel like i'm not doing it right, I'm not good enough all the time. I get suanned all the time and you guys think it's fun but try being told everyday that you're lousy, you're ugly, you're fat, you're whatever you guys decide to call me that day. Y'know what, I'm tired of all this, we're a team, you guys are behaving like you dont even care. Our teamwork's not thr so why do you pretend that it is? After what happened today I got really really pissed at you guys and you think that you can change your mind like that and go "oh lets have trashing now, we call zheru up and make her trash with us also". We asked you guys the day before, you guys agreed. Then the next day you go acting like we forced you guys into it and you dont wanna do it and then later you just go "let's have it after all!" It seriously pissed me off. I don't know what to do anymore I think I should just give up. I felt like giving up. Labels: cramps, giving up, letting go, moodswings, periods
What do you see when you turn out the light? I can't tell you but I know it's mine